[When Oren shoves past him, Ryan hopes-- just for a moment-- that it's not what he thinks it is. That maybe Mattias had at least gone to him. He expects the answer that he gets, knows anything else was unlikely... but it still makes his fins droop for a moment.

-until Oren's words hit him, and they flare out as Ryan walks after him.]

You think I didn't try? I wasn't just sitting around all fucking day, I don't know what kind of person you think I--

[How is he to trust a man who can't trust him in return? That echoes right back through his mind, and Ryan cuts himself off.]

No. I do. And he's not here, so if you don't think I can be trusted to look for him either, you can keep going.