What an unfair question. [His fingers thread in and out, trying new patterns, new formations.] How am I able to answer without sounding cruel?
[He sighs, tipping his head up and slumping in his seat.] The answer is both yes and no but I fear obligation forces me to choose the former. Your wounds should heal in a few days time. You've no more need of me.
[ he frowns, shifting in his seat and pausing with a brief laugh as he gestures over to vinlates. He's currently vibrating into a corner of the room, "tail" rattling about. ]
It seems Vinlates could use your guidance, as well.
Oh, goddess. [Immediately, he stands and goes to fetch the beast, picking it up by the tail and setting it on the bed beside him. It continues to vibrate about, noise muffled by the sheets. Mattias watches it curiously.]
I do wonder if it ever stops moving. [He sighs, looking back to Oren, hands folded in his lap.] He's a troublesome creature, that's for certain. I'm not sure we knew what we were getting into.
[He watches as it nuzzles into a pile of blankets, keeping Oren in the corner of his eye.] I expect joint custody, you know.
[It's an excuse to stay longer, conversation like this, and so Oren doesn't mind sitting here and watching... whatever it is vibrate around on the bed. Mattias' words are comical, somehow, and he laughs, shaking his head.]
Custody is a concern already? Are we separated?
[He pauses a little bit after that, letting it trail a little sadly into silence as his eyes rest on that ring of Mattias'. How many times has he seen it now? No, actually, when hasn't he worn it?]
I've been wondering. [He starts casually as he can, pulling this out of the blue, and leans forward a little to gesture at Mattias' hands. He's troubled, jealous, curious, but he tries to seem calm.] Is that ring a souvenir? A gift? Since it's appeared, there hasn't been a day where I've seen you remove it.
[He stutters at the mention, not in speech but in motion. His hands cover each other quickly, trying a variety of movements and yet nothing seems to hide it. His smile grows strained and he wets his lips as he weighs his options. Telling a lie would only become a burden so, reluctantly, he chooses the truth.]
It's a gift. [He fidgets with it.] From Robin. He [a deep breath] gave it to me before you arrived. I took an oath to always wear it.
[Steeling himself, he looks up to Oren with a wan smile while his fingers curl into the fabric of his pants.]
[It flattens his smile, and his own hands press together in front of himself. Specially crafted for him. The words spark a fire in him, and he's not even sure which side he's more irritated by. More jealous of.]
And to think he had talked down your importance. That sly dog. [He looks down at his lap with a dry laugh.]
I hadn't realized it was so personal. My apologies.
[The room is tighter, a corset around his chest making his spine rigid and breathing short. His throat is useless, refusing air and catching on his tongue. A smile struggles and all he can think of is the emotion of Michael's reunion. Tek's first warning. Was this the thread of his web suffocating him? It was a strange sensation, the world surging in, and he tries to battle it with shallow breaths that only make his head feel lighter.
He ends up laughing. At the feeling, at the uncertainty, at the fear, at himself. At everything. It's a nervous sound, one that shakes the body more than the air, and it ends quickly as it comes. He smiles again, teeth showing, but it's forced. His eyes are in a different place.]
N-No. [His composure is slipping. He ducks his head to hide it, fingers scrambling to pull the ring off. Throw it somewhere, maybe. Stash it. The oath was made in naiveté. It could be broken.] There's no need for that. It's simply a ring. A gift. There's—[it won't come off no matter how hard he tries. His fingers can't grip it or rather they won't. Really, even now he was a fool.]—there's no meaning to such trinkets.
[Breathing in deeper helps and in a matter of minutes his composure slips back on. He looks up and that pleasant smile is back with a soft chuckle.] If he wanted to propose, he would have given me a necklace.
[Propose? Mattias cared that much for him? His own stomach twists into a knot, but on his face, his eyebrows pinch together in concern. He stands just to sit on the edge of the bed next to him, not too close, but close enough to place a hand to his shoulder and lean in.]
Mattias. [Concern leaks from his lips with expertise, and his frown is perfectly shaped. His eyes move from Mattias' face to his hands and back to his face again, and he gives his shoulder a light squeeze.]
Mattias. [The composure is back, but Oren has already seen the light. Connected the pieces.] Are you alright? Is he-- [There's no real classy way of asking if Robin has done anything to him, but hanging off into silence abruptly works just as well.]
I'd thought it was only me who caused your absence, but... Is there more on your mind? [He hesitates slightly and lets his hand slide down his arm a bit.] Is there anything I can do?
[Oren's had feels like a current pressing against him. It's distracting, encroaching and does little to make his world feel any less claustrophobic. His mask is faltering, a thin veil stretching apart with every moment that passes. He needs to dismiss the subject. Bring them on to something else but his mind is working for a topic and finding nothing.
He presses a hand against Oren's chest, smiling harder to reassure him.]
No. No. It's nothing like that. He—we're friends. [He ignores the way the ground feels unstable as he says that.] I just needed to get away. From it all. It—it has nothing to do with any of you.
He holds the words back, moving his hand from Mattias' arm to grip the one at his chest. It's light at first, but he squeezes, sitting up straighter to allow him some space.]
I understand. [Two simple words, but he hopes they carry the weight they're meant to. He actually does understand the need to get away.]
You know, I do miss our talks. [He releases his hand and presses it against the bed, urging him to keep it there, to keep calm.] I realize that they may not be the same at this point, but if your mind ails you, please consider speaking to me.
[They could have fun like they used to. Take walks, vent, see sights, forget about the burdens.]
You've caught me; I'm worried about you. [He smiles with that, small and charming.] And I'd like if I didn't have to say it again.
[One of the miracles to Oren is the contagion in his smiles. They're a plague that sweeps through him and dregs up relief and comfort. Space expands, the air feels lighter and those words mean everything. For once, he feels genuine. For once, he rings true.
It's exactly what he needed to hear.
He returns the smile in tenfold, a breathy laugh breaking through. He ducks his head, bites his lip. Resist the urge to thread their fingers together.]
Even if I asked politely?
[He laughs again, holding up a hand and shaking his head. Joking, joking. Biting back his smile, he raises his head.] Thank you.
[Oren is an anchor and the chaotic tide. He's a sandstorm and a shelter. For too long, Mattias has only remembered one of the two. He's happy. Elated and trying to keep calm, ignoring how his heart swells and his lungs flood. He could kiss him now, in this moment. A peck to the cheek. But he resists, watching their joined hands fondly.]
I haven't slept with anyone, you know. [He glances up with a wry grin.] When you called me drunk? I haven't slept with anyone since I left the ship.
[He gets that smile back and it's a victory. Even when those last words cause both relief and hesitation (since I left the ship, he says. why specify that?), he finds himself smoothing his thumb over the back of Mattias' hand.
He's reassuring him. Being honest. It's a good sign, but it's one he has to follow up on. He has to stay in this light, and it's a constant dance. One he knows well.]
...So you did sit through the entirety of those?
[His laugh is weak, but it's practiced. It comes out smooth like most everything he does, and he slows his thumb finally.] It's-- You speak so humbly of your own traits, but I can't help but notice the ones around you who are enamored.
[He raises his free hand, rubbing at the back of his neck as his head lowers the slightest. Like he's admitting something secret (and in a way, this is a drop in pride, revealing any amount of his jealousy), or like he's a little embarrassed.]
Robin, as well. Especially, I'd say. [He pulls his own hand back, dropping the other and gripping them together in his lap. It's almost a wringing motion.]
It's not that he was speaking lowly of you at all, I hope you realize. It's that I questioned him on it directly and he continued to brush it off. He questioned my closeness with you, as well.
[Slowly, he looks up to Mattias, his hands gripping each other tight.]
I thought that... perhaps with him... [He shakes his head, separating his hands so he can raise one to wave it off.] It wasn't my place to accuse you.
No. [He chuckles, waving a hand halfway through Oren's apology.] No. Robin and I—[He sighs.]—While I can't say I'd be adverse to the idea, it wouldn't—there are complications. We're... It's unlikely to happen.
[As much as he desires otherwise. Still, the tension in his shoulders lessens and when he smiles at Oren it's easy. Fonder than before. Slowly, his hands wrap around Oren's own.] Still, it's a relief to hear clarification. I... [his hands fall away, moving back to fiddle with the ring.] ... am a man of foolish hope.
[He laughs breathlessly, gaze flickering to Oren and back, shy, at first, before he pauses. Grins. Leans back with a growing smirk. Oren was jealous, not simply of flirtatious aliens but of anyone getting close. It was flattering, in a way. The right kind of protection.] You truly have grown possessive, haven't you?
[Wouldn't be adverse. But it's unlikely? The first part infuriates him (he can't put his finger on why), but the second confirms his thoughts. He and Robin are already tearing themselves apart. The brief touch of their hands is nice, but it slips away just as fast, and Oren is left staring at Mattias.
Possessiveness comes up and he has to turn away, looking a little exasperated.]
Oh, come off it.
[Maybe it was so pride damaging and annoying because he couldn't explain it himself. The usual hurt of jealousy stings, and he's sure Enkythos is loving all of these moments. He crosses one leg over the other.]
It's nothing so unflattering. You do realize how long you left my calls unanswered? What am I to think of myself in a scenario like this?
[It's all excuses meant to wave Mattias off from speaking on it more than any real defense-- because he has none.
That we had a fight and I still refused to speak to you.
[Partway through he stands, gathering his supplies and getting rid of them. Tossing the shards in the trash, bringing the towels to the bathroom. The sound of rushing water can be heard as he calls out from inside:]
Or perhaps that I was dead. Yet sex is where you leapt. [He comes to the doorway of the bathroom, watching Oren with the barest smirk.] How telling.
[His gaze is heavy as he eyes Oren, taking him in. That bare smirk becomes sinful as he glides to the bed and when he leans over their bodies are a mere breath apart.]
Careful, dear prince. [His voice is like velvet, a callback to the few nights they spent together.] You'll spend yourself in one night.
[And then he grabs Vinlates and turns away, dropping their pet on the floor and digging the lava lamps from the bag.]
[...Overall, this confidence is attractive. He has a lot of other feelings on it and the other things Mattias is saying, but when their bodies are so close, he stops his own breath. His eyes get lost in Mattias', and before he knows it, they're separated again.
He breathes out a slow sigh into a chuckle or two, leaning back further on the bed to rest on his palms. If only it were an easy solution to fall asleep here. To force Mattias to allow him to stay. A childish thought that he brushes away quickly.]
You'll mess with those things now? It's good I've not yet left, after all. [They could be dangerous.]
What? [He calls over his shoulder, unpacking the first of the two and placing it on the desk.] Shall I count on you for protection? There's no glass bottles around, I'm afraid. You'll have to conjure any fire you wish for.
[His hands stall while unboxing. His eyes remain on Oren, gaze turning sly.]
Why a simple guard? [He smiles.] When you could be my protector.
[With a lingering gaze, he pulls the last lava lamp out, placing it on the other side of the table. He leaves them unplugged for now, clearing the space around the spots of blood left over. Without looking back, he motions for Oren.] Get me something to clean this up with.
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Date: 2015-05-07 08:16 pm (UTC)[He sighs, tipping his head up and slumping in his seat.] The answer is both yes and no but I fear obligation forces me to choose the former. Your wounds should heal in a few days time. You've no more need of me.
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Date: 2015-05-07 08:33 pm (UTC)[ he frowns, shifting in his seat and pausing with a brief laugh as he gestures over to vinlates. He's currently vibrating into a corner of the room, "tail" rattling about. ]
It seems Vinlates could use your guidance, as well.
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Date: 2015-05-07 08:50 pm (UTC)I do wonder if it ever stops moving. [He sighs, looking back to Oren, hands folded in his lap.] He's a troublesome creature, that's for certain. I'm not sure we knew what we were getting into.
[He watches as it nuzzles into a pile of blankets, keeping Oren in the corner of his eye.] I expect joint custody, you know.
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Date: 2015-05-08 02:08 am (UTC)Custody is a concern already? Are we separated?
[He pauses a little bit after that, letting it trail a little sadly into silence as his eyes rest on that ring of Mattias'. How many times has he seen it now? No, actually, when hasn't he worn it?]
I've been wondering. [He starts casually as he can, pulling this out of the blue, and leans forward a little to gesture at Mattias' hands. He's troubled, jealous, curious, but he tries to seem calm.] Is that ring a souvenir? A gift? Since it's appeared, there hasn't been a day where I've seen you remove it.
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Date: 2015-05-08 02:22 am (UTC)It's a gift. [He fidgets with it.] From Robin. He [a deep breath] gave it to me before you arrived. I took an oath to always wear it.
[Steeling himself, he looks up to Oren with a wan smile while his fingers curl into the fabric of his pants.]
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Date: 2015-05-08 02:24 am (UTC)[It sends his mind reeling. Not just a gift, but one from Robin. One that he's sworn to always wear? Why? For what purpose?]
That sounds rather serious... Does it serve a purpose?
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Date: 2015-05-08 02:29 am (UTC)No, no. Nothing like that. It was specially crafted. [His eyes flicker to Oren's before looking away.] For me.
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Date: 2015-05-08 02:36 am (UTC)And to think he had talked down your importance. That sly dog. [He looks down at his lap with a dry laugh.]
I hadn't realized it was so personal. My apologies.
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Date: 2015-05-08 02:57 am (UTC)He ends up laughing. At the feeling, at the uncertainty, at the fear, at himself. At everything. It's a nervous sound, one that shakes the body more than the air, and it ends quickly as it comes. He smiles again, teeth showing, but it's forced. His eyes are in a different place.]
N-No. [His composure is slipping. He ducks his head to hide it, fingers scrambling to pull the ring off. Throw it somewhere, maybe. Stash it. The oath was made in naiveté. It could be broken.] There's no need for that. It's simply a ring. A gift. There's—[it won't come off no matter how hard he tries. His fingers can't grip it or rather they won't. Really, even now he was a fool.]—there's no meaning to such trinkets.
[Breathing in deeper helps and in a matter of minutes his composure slips back on. He looks up and that pleasant smile is back with a soft chuckle.] If he wanted to propose, he would have given me a necklace.
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Date: 2015-05-08 03:06 am (UTC)Mattias. [Concern leaks from his lips with expertise, and his frown is perfectly shaped. His eyes move from Mattias' face to his hands and back to his face again, and he gives his shoulder a light squeeze.]
Mattias. [The composure is back, but Oren has already seen the light. Connected the pieces.] Are you alright? Is he-- [There's no real classy way of asking if Robin has done anything to him, but hanging off into silence abruptly works just as well.]
I'd thought it was only me who caused your absence, but... Is there more on your mind? [He hesitates slightly and lets his hand slide down his arm a bit.] Is there anything I can do?
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Date: 2015-05-08 03:25 am (UTC)He presses a hand against Oren's chest, smiling harder to reassure him.]
No. No. It's nothing like that. He—we're friends. [He ignores the way the ground feels unstable as he says that.] I just needed to get away. From it all. It—it has nothing to do with any of you.
[It had everything to do with all of them.]
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Date: 2015-05-08 03:43 am (UTC)He holds the words back, moving his hand from Mattias' arm to grip the one at his chest. It's light at first, but he squeezes, sitting up straighter to allow him some space.]
I understand. [Two simple words, but he hopes they carry the weight they're meant to. He actually does understand the need to get away.]
You know, I do miss our talks. [He releases his hand and presses it against the bed, urging him to keep it there, to keep calm.] I realize that they may not be the same at this point, but if your mind ails you, please consider speaking to me.
[They could have fun like they used to. Take walks, vent, see sights, forget about the burdens.]
You've caught me; I'm worried about you. [He smiles with that, small and charming.] And I'd like if I didn't have to say it again.
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Date: 2015-05-08 05:40 am (UTC)It's exactly what he needed to hear.
He returns the smile in tenfold, a breathy laugh breaking through. He ducks his head, bites his lip. Resist the urge to thread their fingers together.]
Even if I asked politely?
[He laughs again, holding up a hand and shaking his head. Joking, joking. Biting back his smile, he raises his head.] Thank you.
[Oren is an anchor and the chaotic tide. He's a sandstorm and a shelter. For too long, Mattias has only remembered one of the two. He's happy. Elated and trying to keep calm, ignoring how his heart swells and his lungs flood. He could kiss him now, in this moment. A peck to the cheek. But he resists, watching their joined hands fondly.]
I haven't slept with anyone, you know. [He glances up with a wry grin.] When you called me drunk? I haven't slept with anyone since I left the ship.
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Date: 2015-05-08 05:57 am (UTC)He's reassuring him. Being honest. It's a good sign, but it's one he has to follow up on. He has to stay in this light, and it's a constant dance. One he knows well.]
...So you did sit through the entirety of those?
[His laugh is weak, but it's practiced. It comes out smooth like most everything he does, and he slows his thumb finally.] It's-- You speak so humbly of your own traits, but I can't help but notice the ones around you who are enamored.
[He raises his free hand, rubbing at the back of his neck as his head lowers the slightest. Like he's admitting something secret (and in a way, this is a drop in pride, revealing any amount of his jealousy), or like he's a little embarrassed.]
Robin, as well. Especially, I'd say. [He pulls his own hand back, dropping the other and gripping them together in his lap. It's almost a wringing motion.]
It's not that he was speaking lowly of you at all, I hope you realize. It's that I questioned him on it directly and he continued to brush it off. He questioned my closeness with you, as well.
[Slowly, he looks up to Mattias, his hands gripping each other tight.]
I thought that... perhaps with him... [He shakes his head, separating his hands so he can raise one to wave it off.] It wasn't my place to accuse you.
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Date: 2015-05-08 06:35 am (UTC)[As much as he desires otherwise. Still, the tension in his shoulders lessens and when he smiles at Oren it's easy. Fonder than before. Slowly, his hands wrap around Oren's own.] Still, it's a relief to hear clarification. I... [his hands fall away, moving back to fiddle with the ring.] ... am a man of foolish hope.
[He laughs breathlessly, gaze flickering to Oren and back, shy, at first, before he pauses. Grins. Leans back with a growing smirk. Oren was jealous, not simply of flirtatious aliens but of anyone getting close. It was flattering, in a way. The right kind of protection.] You truly have grown possessive, haven't you?
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Date: 2015-05-08 06:48 am (UTC)Possessiveness comes up and he has to turn away, looking a little exasperated.]
Oh, come off it.
[Maybe it was so pride damaging and annoying because he couldn't explain it himself. The usual hurt of jealousy stings, and he's sure Enkythos is loving all of these moments. He crosses one leg over the other.]
It's nothing so unflattering. You do realize how long you left my calls unanswered? What am I to think of myself in a scenario like this?
[It's all excuses meant to wave Mattias off from speaking on it more than any real defense-- because he has none.
He is possessive.]
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Date: 2015-05-08 06:56 am (UTC)That we had a fight and I still refused to speak to you.
[Partway through he stands, gathering his supplies and getting rid of them. Tossing the shards in the trash, bringing the towels to the bathroom. The sound of rushing water can be heard as he calls out from inside:]
Or perhaps that I was dead. Yet sex is where you leapt. [He comes to the doorway of the bathroom, watching Oren with the barest smirk.] How telling.
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Date: 2015-05-08 07:04 am (UTC)[He eyes Mattias for a long moment there, slowly uncrossing his legs when he's left alone. Well. With Vinlates. He laughs a little.]
I simply-- To need one's company while they have no need for yours is a painful thing.
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Date: 2015-05-08 07:14 am (UTC)Careful, dear prince. [His voice is like velvet, a callback to the few nights they spent together.] You'll spend yourself in one night.
[And then he grabs Vinlates and turns away, dropping their pet on the floor and digging the lava lamps from the bag.]
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Date: 2015-05-08 07:18 am (UTC)He breathes out a slow sigh into a chuckle or two, leaning back further on the bed to rest on his palms. If only it were an easy solution to fall asleep here. To force Mattias to allow him to stay. A childish thought that he brushes away quickly.]
You'll mess with those things now? It's good I've not yet left, after all. [They could be dangerous.]
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Date: 2015-05-08 07:50 pm (UTC)[He stands from the bed, walking over to crouch beside him.]
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Date: 2015-05-09 01:51 am (UTC)[He allows him, chin resting on his hand as he stays crouched where he is.]
Think of me as a guard.
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Date: 2015-05-09 02:06 am (UTC)Why a simple guard? [He smiles.] When you could be my protector.
[With a lingering gaze, he pulls the last lava lamp out, placing it on the other side of the table. He leaves them unplugged for now, clearing the space around the spots of blood left over. Without looking back, he motions for Oren.] Get me something to clean this up with.
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